The Bittersweet part :o)

So today has been bittersweet for me. I officially ended my 4 year job at Aliant Bank and my oh my how sad yet happy it has made me. I picked Preston up today from Mrs. Peggy and Mr. Keith's (or as P calls them Eggy and Keef) and I have to admit it was the first time during the day that i teared up. They have been such a blessing to my little family. Preston stayed with my Nana and Pawpaw on the days my mom was not working when he was a baby. My Pawpaw was diagnosed with beginnings of Alzheimer's around August of last year( I think that is roughly the time). P was getting big and harder to handle and it became apparent that my sweet Nana did not need to be watching him anymore as he was getting heavy and she needed the break. God intervined as I cried to Robert about not knowing what to do and sent me sweet loving people to take care of my baby boy when I couldn't. I don't think they knew they would get themselves into keeping him for longer than 6 months but they have been soo sweet and such a blessing from day one! Here are all the things i wanted to say but never did about keeping Preston.

Mrs. Peggy and Mr. Keith,
I am so thankful that you were there to take care of my sweet baby boy for me so I did not have to put him into Daycare at 11 mths old. I am thankful that you gave up new found retirement to babysit a toddler four days a week for next to nothing. I am thankful that you fell as much in love with him as he did with you. I am thankful that we have reconnected with people I can always trust and can call on in times of need or friendship. I am thankful that you taught him where his fingers and toes were when I couldn't and you helped him learn his colors (especially pink he told me about pink yesterday). He is so smart and I am so thankful that he learned so much while he was with you and that ya'll took the time to teach him and play with him. I am thankful that you took him outside and allowed Moxie to hang out because he so loves to play with her. I am thankful for everything you have ever done for our sweet boy! Words can not begin to express how thankful Robert and I are that you took time out of your life for ours. We are forever grateful and don't know how we will ever be able to repay you for your kindness and generosity!
xoxo
Jennifer, Robert and Preston

I thought I would make it the whole day without crying ;o)

There is a bright light at the end of the tunnel!

WOO HOO! One 2 more days of work til I start my new job. Check out the pic of my new boss below! He is soooo cute!

TTC #2

So its been a while since I have posted anything so I thought I should journal through our trying to conceive baby 2 would be a great place to pick up and journal. We have always wanted a large family with about 4 biological kids and maybe 2 adopted children. So when we had Preston we knew we needed to keep them close in age. My brother and I were 4 years apart so there where times when it was great and times when it was not so great. I always looked up to the people that had siblings a little closer to their own age so when we decided on a large family i thought 2 years between each child would be great! So begins our plan for baby number 2. When we got preggers with Preston everything went sooo smooth we said lets not really try and just see what happens in January and February. When nothing happened I decided that i was going to figure out when i was supposed to ovulate so i could plan better. Well it worked the first week of April we produced our 1st of probably 15 positive pregnancy tests ( I kept taking them like it was magically going to change). I assumed this time would be just as quick as long as i knew when i was ovulating. Needless to say it was a big disappointment when I realized I was not pregnant and was in fact very not pregnant. I know its just the first month we tried but deep down I really thought it would happen like it did last time. So i was a little bummed for about a day but I know that its in God's will and that He is in control not me so we are leaving it up to Him.

Blessed

So I started the night picking up Preston and getting him ready for bed time. Once he was down I ate dinner and decided that I needed to look for stuff on sale that i needed for the house...mainly babywipes...so i set out on the computer for sales and coupons. Anywho somehow like it often does i managed to find my way to facebook and then onward from there to blogs that other follow. I came across the blog for the Ramer Family. As many of you probably heard on the new a few months back they lost both their twins in a drowing accident. I read her posts and wondered how a mother who btw was 3-4 months pregnant when her children passed...could blog about the day that changed her life a mere few months after. Now do not get me wrong I do think its a wonderful way to feel better and get things off your chest but for me blogging about it would have made it real and i applaude her for her courage. What was supposed to be a short computer time transformed to two hours of reading her blogs. My heart ached for her and I felt like I was living her tragedy with her! It made me think of all the times that I put Preston back in his crib and let him cry it out because i had done everything i knew to do for him because i had to go to work in the morning. It made me think of the times when i complained about him only wanting me and nothing to do with Robert for weeks on end because i was exhausted from the constant whining that went with putting him down to play...It makes me realize how blessed I am to having him in my life! That God trusted me with this little person that smiles all the time and calls me "ma" ... the sweet way he runs his fingers through my hair when he takes his bottle at night with one hand and rubs his lovie with the other hand on his cheek. I can not imagine the pain and suffering that this woman has gone through and will go through for the rest of her life! It really touched me and I cried all through her blog. God has truly blessed me and her blog has helped me realize that. I hope that by reading this it will you as well. xoxo.

Universal healthcare...Whats the point???

So I have been meaning to write about this for some time now and have not had the chance. Our wonderful(and i say that loosely) President thinks making Universal health care is a wonderful idea...of course his followers think since he said its wonderful that maybe it really is and they Trust in him because they think that he is only doing good for the United States and all they hear is FREE. Well its not free. Do you realize that with universal health care there will be less doctors because they will not be paid as much as before. Less doctors means less doctors that are specialized in different fields and also means less care for you or your sick children! I was listening to a radio show the other day and it was mentioned that in Canada's universal health care system (which is terrible) it can take up to 8 weeks to get chemo when you find out that you have cancer...it also take up to 8 months to get a colonoscopy!!! Also doctors can refuse to treat older patients because they figure if they are 65 or older they are probably going to die soon anyway so they may refuse operations that would otherwise save their lives. A customer today at the bank stated that "the only person that should be allowed to stop my heart from beating is God Almighty"! (What i did not tell him was that if his heart stops beating the Good Lord knew it was his time anyway). I know that there are lots of people in this world that do not have insurance and need it to survive and yes the health care program needs a slight face lift for those people but i am perfectly content with my insurance. I love my doctors and Preston's doctor and the thought of the Government telling me who i have to use as a physician terrifies me. What do ya'll think???

Having a baby changes everything

As most of you know I am formerly not the neatest person in the world...my house often looked like the random scattered thoughts in my head...I often knew where stuff was and could find anything among utter chaos! I am glad to report that has somewhat changed since Preston...Upon washing dishes tonight and getting bottles rinsed to go into the dishwasher i realized that not only was i cleaning my kitchen before bed but i had done so every night since we moved into our new house! Shocking I know!!! I know it has to be done so i guess it has just become second nature...oh and the other shocking thing. Robert and I are the worlds worst at letting our clean clothes pile up in a stack on the guest bed...we dont mind washing but hate the putting away and folding...tonight i told him that i would come to bed after i get finished with laundry upon which he said you dont have to fold the ones in the dryer...my response Oh yes i do if i dont it will sit on the bed and i dont have time or energy to fold 8 loads at one time...I think I am turning into my mother ;o)

my no good horrible terrible very bad day...

So I am convinced that this week has been national unlucky week. As everyone I have talked to has agreed! Let me start off with how this week has been so far...Saturday started off wonderfully I got up got the house vacuumed and mopped and clean for Stephanie's shower. The shower went well but Preston was unusually fussy ... and my house was really hot!!! Sunday I woke up extremely cranky and extremely tired. I had been battling a headache for the last two days and was completely exhausted from the move and shower Not to mention that Preston thought waking up sometime in the middle of the night and getting up at 530 in the morning was acceptable...We missed Sunday school because i was so tired and cranky that i slept in til 9 to try to get rid of my headache. We made it to church (late) and sat in the balcony I think i fell asleep twice!!! I have never in my entire life fallen asleep in church! I was just that exhausted! Imagine taking a sleeping pill and then fighting it to stay awake that is how i felt! Anyway Monday morning I wake up and the house is still hot (courtesy of a frozen air conditioner) I get Preston up and ready and we head out the door. Monday was not so bad but boy did i get it Tuesday! Robert called the American home shield people and they said they would be here first thing Tuesday morning...so I went through the house turning all the ceiling fans on to high so we could cool down before putting P to bed. I made the big mistake of sleeping with out ceiling fans on high (which have resulted in Preston and I with terrible colds). So i get up Tuesday morning and the guy from the warranty place comes but states that he will have to come back since he was not told the air conditioner is frozen...he instructs us to turn it off and then he will be back that afternoon...Preston also has a cough that kind of sounds rough but i just assume its from the fans being on high. I take Preston, and the two dogs and head out for the day. I drop Preston off at Nana and PawPaws and then i take the dogs to mom and dads so they can escape the hot house for the day...all of this while i have had a no gas light on since the night before. So after dropping on the dogs i decide to stop at this lil hole in the wall gas station to get enough gas to make it to work so that i wont be too late. I pull in and had to go inside to pay since they had the old pumps with the dials. I get inside and he tells me to go ahead and fill up...i go back outside and start the pump...it pumps and suddenly stops...at .32 cents! Apparently he was out of gas...he tells me the next gas station is the BP down the road. I told him thanks and ask him to pray that i make it there...I make it there alright and as i pull up to the pump i feel like all will be OK...i get out swipe my card and it gives me the dreaded three words..."PLEASE SEE ATTENDANT" !!! So irritated i take my card and go inside where the attendant states that if i am trying to pay with my card it will not work because their machine is down. I told her that i was completely out of gas and that i had a check book she then states we do not take checks...I asked what i was supposed to do about gas and she says without even a pause there's another gas station by the interstate...I replied with yes but what good is that going to do me i don't have enough gas to get there!!! So i get back in my car thinking that God is trying to teach me patients and i cant help but burst into tears called my mom and told her she may have to come get me lol. Such a drama queen i know! So i finally see the Chevron in the distance and start to get excited! I literally sputtered into the gas station and died right by the pump lol. When i reset my fuel thingy it showed that i had been 331 miles on that tank of gas. I have never let it get that low! The day was topped off with Robert taking off work for the birth of my sister in laws baby...I went to visit and broke the strap on my shoe. I had to drag my shoe and foot back to the car like quazi moto or something lol. Then Wednesday Preston ends up having to go to the DR for a cold and Robert stayed off work with him I was very sick feeling and ill, Today i had to stay out with Preston so Robert could go back to work...I just pray for the strength to get through this week! One more day of work and then two days with my hunnie!