Blessed

So I started the night picking up Preston and getting him ready for bed time. Once he was down I ate dinner and decided that I needed to look for stuff on sale that i needed for the house...mainly babywipes...so i set out on the computer for sales and coupons. Anywho somehow like it often does i managed to find my way to facebook and then onward from there to blogs that other follow. I came across the blog for the Ramer Family. As many of you probably heard on the new a few months back they lost both their twins in a drowing accident. I read her posts and wondered how a mother who btw was 3-4 months pregnant when her children passed...could blog about the day that changed her life a mere few months after. Now do not get me wrong I do think its a wonderful way to feel better and get things off your chest but for me blogging about it would have made it real and i applaude her for her courage. What was supposed to be a short computer time transformed to two hours of reading her blogs. My heart ached for her and I felt like I was living her tragedy with her! It made me think of all the times that I put Preston back in his crib and let him cry it out because i had done everything i knew to do for him because i had to go to work in the morning. It made me think of the times when i complained about him only wanting me and nothing to do with Robert for weeks on end because i was exhausted from the constant whining that went with putting him down to play...It makes me realize how blessed I am to having him in my life! That God trusted me with this little person that smiles all the time and calls me "ma" ... the sweet way he runs his fingers through my hair when he takes his bottle at night with one hand and rubs his lovie with the other hand on his cheek. I can not imagine the pain and suffering that this woman has gone through and will go through for the rest of her life! It really touched me and I cried all through her blog. God has truly blessed me and her blog has helped me realize that. I hope that by reading this it will you as well. xoxo.