TTC Update

So I know I mentioned a few months ago that we were starting to try for baby number 2. Upon quitting my job we came to the realization that 610.00 for insurance is outrageous and while we could do it on Roberts salary now money would be extremely tight. So we looked for different options which lead us to an individual policy. Unfortunately, it will not cover a pregnancy for 365 consecutive days so we would have to pay out of pocket for everything if we got pregnant. While we weren't so worried about it in the beginning we began to worry about the what ifs..such as what if I have a complicated pregnancy this go round or what if we require a c section this time...or worse what if the baby has to stay in the hospital for a long time. I think you get the idea. We worked really hard to become debt free and the thought of having hospital bills or credit card bills for a baby scares me! We have put baby number 2 on hold for a month or two and are weighing our options. I am not getting back on birth control though as we are putting it into God's hands. I told Robert, after hours of hysterical crying at the thought of us not having baby 2 soon, that I totally felt a calm after the storm. I know that if we do get pregnant that everything will work out and all will be OK. God has always given me peace when i am worried and this situation was no different. I trust Him with all my heart and soul and know that he will provide even when we feel we can't. Hopefully we will resume trying again in September. For only God knows what he has planned for us. xoxo

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5

Did I mention...

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Things to get done

So I have been lazy today since we got back from our week long vacation yesterday and have tons of stuff to do now that I am a stay at home mommy and have no excuses to keep me from doing them. Here are somethings i would like to do now that i work in my house!

1. Get Organized!!! My house is so cluttered I need to do something to straighten it up.

2. Get P organized! He has way too many toys so i need to go through them and put up stuff he is too old for.

3. finally upload beach pictures and write a blog about our trip...other than discussing coke :o)

4. clean out my drawers and closet! I have TONS of pre-baby clothes that i will never fit into ever again! If you need some clothes ( some with tags still attached I am sure) let me know I might have something that will fit you ( sizes 6 and below).

5. Actually use the treadmill I begged Robert to buy me...and for longer than 10 minutes.

6. Learn to paint and actually use it. I have brushes and paints but just don't take the time to paint anything.

7. COUPON!

8. take more video of Preston.

9. Start MIT at Morningview and attend more regularly on Sunday nights.

10. spend more time with my nana and pawpaw.

11. come up with a schedule for cleaning house.

Thats all I can think of at the moment...although i am sure there are tons more that i will think of later...

Beach Trip 10

So we went to the beach last Monday and enjoyed 5 days of wonderful weather! We stayed at the Breakers East condos in Destin and could not have enjoyed it more! When we first arrived we were delighted that our condo looked just like the pictures and there were no bad surprises. Our view was just as beautiful as promised! WE did have a minor toilet issue but it was fixed within 30 minutes of calling Carolyn about it. The water pressure was also pretty terrible the first two days so baths were a must as showers were out. We took P down to the water when we got there Monday and unfortunately what he loved last year he really didn't want to take part in this year :o( This makes me sad but think that maybe it was just a little overwhelming for him and that next year will be better. I think the waves scared him this year and bless his heart he doesn't like to get his hands dirty so really playing in the sand was out of the question. We did find out however that little man is a true southerner as every carbonated drink he saw ( and tasted for that matter) became coke. We have created a monster this weekend and now i have to break the coke habit. A little coke apparently goes a long way :o) I know some of you are reading this going wow she gave her kid coke! Yes we did as we became desperate to finish a dinner with out him screaming and crying and trying to throw himself out of his highchair. Now don't get me wrong he typically does very well at dinner time but for some reason he did not enjoy his dinner experiences at the beach (except at The Crab Trap) its the only time he sat still and ate while we enjoyed our dinner as well (Tequila Lime Grouper is pretty great!). needless to say when we came home today and our son tried to grab my can of diet Sunkist while proclaiming coke coke coke over again I am pretty sure that he needs some form of rehab ;o) There will be no more coke for him for a while.
Anywho, sorry for the coke ramblings i do that a lot on here. The beach was great! I got way to much sun and ate too much. I promise i will get pics on here tomorrow while P naps. Love to all!

The Bittersweet part :o)

So today has been bittersweet for me. I officially ended my 4 year job at Aliant Bank and my oh my how sad yet happy it has made me. I picked Preston up today from Mrs. Peggy and Mr. Keith's (or as P calls them Eggy and Keef) and I have to admit it was the first time during the day that i teared up. They have been such a blessing to my little family. Preston stayed with my Nana and Pawpaw on the days my mom was not working when he was a baby. My Pawpaw was diagnosed with beginnings of Alzheimer's around August of last year( I think that is roughly the time). P was getting big and harder to handle and it became apparent that my sweet Nana did not need to be watching him anymore as he was getting heavy and she needed the break. God intervined as I cried to Robert about not knowing what to do and sent me sweet loving people to take care of my baby boy when I couldn't. I don't think they knew they would get themselves into keeping him for longer than 6 months but they have been soo sweet and such a blessing from day one! Here are all the things i wanted to say but never did about keeping Preston.

Mrs. Peggy and Mr. Keith,
I am so thankful that you were there to take care of my sweet baby boy for me so I did not have to put him into Daycare at 11 mths old. I am thankful that you gave up new found retirement to babysit a toddler four days a week for next to nothing. I am thankful that you fell as much in love with him as he did with you. I am thankful that we have reconnected with people I can always trust and can call on in times of need or friendship. I am thankful that you taught him where his fingers and toes were when I couldn't and you helped him learn his colors (especially pink he told me about pink yesterday). He is so smart and I am so thankful that he learned so much while he was with you and that ya'll took the time to teach him and play with him. I am thankful that you took him outside and allowed Moxie to hang out because he so loves to play with her. I am thankful for everything you have ever done for our sweet boy! Words can not begin to express how thankful Robert and I are that you took time out of your life for ours. We are forever grateful and don't know how we will ever be able to repay you for your kindness and generosity!
xoxo
Jennifer, Robert and Preston

I thought I would make it the whole day without crying ;o)

There is a bright light at the end of the tunnel!

WOO HOO! One 2 more days of work til I start my new job. Check out the pic of my new boss below! He is soooo cute!

TTC #2

So its been a while since I have posted anything so I thought I should journal through our trying to conceive baby 2 would be a great place to pick up and journal. We have always wanted a large family with about 4 biological kids and maybe 2 adopted children. So when we had Preston we knew we needed to keep them close in age. My brother and I were 4 years apart so there where times when it was great and times when it was not so great. I always looked up to the people that had siblings a little closer to their own age so when we decided on a large family i thought 2 years between each child would be great! So begins our plan for baby number 2. When we got preggers with Preston everything went sooo smooth we said lets not really try and just see what happens in January and February. When nothing happened I decided that i was going to figure out when i was supposed to ovulate so i could plan better. Well it worked the first week of April we produced our 1st of probably 15 positive pregnancy tests ( I kept taking them like it was magically going to change). I assumed this time would be just as quick as long as i knew when i was ovulating. Needless to say it was a big disappointment when I realized I was not pregnant and was in fact very not pregnant. I know its just the first month we tried but deep down I really thought it would happen like it did last time. So i was a little bummed for about a day but I know that its in God's will and that He is in control not me so we are leaving it up to Him.